Listening to: 911 - New Groove Generation
via FoxyTunes
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It's almost 2 a.m. and I've just finished part of the work I brought back home to do during the long weekend. But that's less than half of what I wanted to accomplish during the holidays. Just as I'm about to finish, I wonder if doing this is worth it. Is it worth it to be absorbed in my work and ignore everything else? Is it worth it to try to be so hardworking to the point that my loved ones are disappointed (and sometimes angry) at me? And most of the time, it doesn't look like anyone's gonna appreciate it. Like Andrew told us, "Why want to be so hardworking? Got employee of the year award meh?" True, there's no award nor consolation for working so hard. But considering that there's so much to do, even without ad-hoc tasks popping up, I don't see how it's possible to finish anything. And it doesn't help that my computer & I are both slow. Until I manage to clear the mess on my table, I cannot stop doing whatever I am doing now, although I won't be able to bring that accomplishment to the grave.
On the other hand, I also wonder why some people tend to want a job so badly and when they do get a not-that-bad one, they go all out to show their dissatisfaction. Is it in the nature of people to always want more than what they already have?
Tuesday 30 December 2008
Saturday 27 December 2008
End of the year blues
Listening to: Gary Farr - You Are Too Beautiful
via SKY.fm (Solo Piano)
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Just a few days ago, Jessica, my colleague was talking to me about how fast the year is coming to an end, i.e. we were getting older. Some of us fear the ageing process. In her case it was because she's afraid her relatives will start badgering her about when she'll tie the knot. I remember my cousin going through that (even when she didn't have a better half back then). The pressure by relatives when one reaches the marrying age.
In my case, I don't have that fear. I mean, I do fear getting older, but for some other reason. I don't think it necessary to be married. I'm fine with being a spinster (or some people like to say old maid). I get to do what I want without having to worry about another person or that person worrying about me.
Anyways, my fear of getting older is that I can't live up to the standards set for the people at that particular age. Allow me to elaborate. As a kid, in kindergarten, we are excused for doing most things, because we are too young to know the difference of right and wrong, and this is the time when we learn new things. Moving on to the schooling age (primary / secondary), we know most of the rights and wrongs but we are considered not matured enough to do certain stuff. Fair enough. Then comes the age between being a teen and an adult. Although considered matured, we can still act crazy. Then comes the age of late twenties and thirties. We'll probably be considered to have known much more than most of the young'uns, the age where we'll have to teach more than be taught, the age where we must be able to make decisions. Then comes the forties and above. The age where we're considered to have gone through all the "asam garam kehidupan".
For me, I'll probably be stuck having the mentality of the-age-between-being-a-teen-and-an-adult. I may grow older by the year but I can never grow up. That's what worries me.
This also reminds me of a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip I read recently:
via SKY.fm (Solo Piano)
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Just a few days ago, Jessica, my colleague was talking to me about how fast the year is coming to an end, i.e. we were getting older. Some of us fear the ageing process. In her case it was because she's afraid her relatives will start badgering her about when she'll tie the knot. I remember my cousin going through that (even when she didn't have a better half back then). The pressure by relatives when one reaches the marrying age.
In my case, I don't have that fear. I mean, I do fear getting older, but for some other reason. I don't think it necessary to be married. I'm fine with being a spinster (or some people like to say old maid). I get to do what I want without having to worry about another person or that person worrying about me.
Anyways, my fear of getting older is that I can't live up to the standards set for the people at that particular age. Allow me to elaborate. As a kid, in kindergarten, we are excused for doing most things, because we are too young to know the difference of right and wrong, and this is the time when we learn new things. Moving on to the schooling age (primary / secondary), we know most of the rights and wrongs but we are considered not matured enough to do certain stuff. Fair enough. Then comes the age between being a teen and an adult. Although considered matured, we can still act crazy. Then comes the age of late twenties and thirties. We'll probably be considered to have known much more than most of the young'uns, the age where we'll have to teach more than be taught, the age where we must be able to make decisions. Then comes the forties and above. The age where we're considered to have gone through all the "asam garam kehidupan".
For me, I'll probably be stuck having the mentality of the-age-between-being-a-teen-and-an-adult. I may grow older by the year but I can never grow up. That's what worries me.
This also reminds me of a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip I read recently:
Sunday 14 December 2008
Mush
Listening to: George Winston - Hummingbird
via FoxyTunes
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With December having 4 public holidays, my brain has been nothing but mush. But there's still so much to do before the year ends. Doubt that I can get much done.
Have been thinking nonsensical thoughts, such as:
"If I miss the third shuttlecock with my rubber chicken, does Buford have to jump over the chokecherry bush before or after the girls finish peeling their tangerines?"
Disney Channel - Phineas and Ferb (Ep: Got Game) [it took me about 10 times after watching the advertisement to finally get it]
It's fun thinking about things like that. Makes life less boring.
via FoxyTunes
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With December having 4 public holidays, my brain has been nothing but mush. But there's still so much to do before the year ends. Doubt that I can get much done.
Have been thinking nonsensical thoughts, such as:
"If I miss the third shuttlecock with my rubber chicken, does Buford have to jump over the chokecherry bush before or after the girls finish peeling their tangerines?"
Disney Channel - Phineas and Ferb (Ep: Got Game) [it took me about 10 times after watching the advertisement to finally get it]
It's fun thinking about things like that. Makes life less boring.
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