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Just a few days ago, Jessica, my colleague was talking to me about how fast the year is coming to an end, i.e. we were getting older. Some of us fear the ageing process. In her case it was because she's afraid her relatives will start badgering her about when she'll tie the knot. I remember my cousin going through that (even when she didn't have a better half back then). The pressure by relatives when one reaches the marrying age.
In my case, I don't have that fear. I mean, I do fear getting older, but for some other reason. I don't think it necessary to be married. I'm fine with being a spinster (or some people like to say old maid). I get to do what I want without having to worry about another person or that person worrying about me.
Anyways, my fear of getting older is that I can't live up to the standards set for the people at that particular age. Allow me to elaborate. As a kid, in kindergarten, we are excused for doing most things, because we are too young to know the difference of right and wrong, and this is the time when we learn new things. Moving on to the schooling age (primary / secondary), we know most of the rights and wrongs but we are considered not matured enough to do certain stuff. Fair enough. Then comes the age between being a teen and an adult. Although considered matured, we can still act crazy. Then comes the age of late twenties and thirties. We'll probably be considered to have known much more than most of the young'uns, the age where we'll have to teach more than be taught, the age where we must be able to make decisions. Then comes the forties and above. The age where we're considered to have gone through all the "asam garam kehidupan".
For me, I'll probably be stuck having the mentality of the-age-between-being-a-teen-and-an-adult. I may grow older by the year but I can never grow up. That's what worries me.
This also reminds me of a Calvin and Hobbes comic strip I read recently:
